its been a while that i haven't written anything about my random thoughts,
Just started doing now, to once again share my self to the world, or should i say a means of unleashing the baggages in me,
Its almost 5:00am, im at my desk, thinking of what to do not spoiling my weekend, its like i have an hr left and ill be leaving the office and spend another 4 days ( its supposed to be 2 days but with schedule adjustment it was made to 4 but thats just once!).
Im soo scarced with different plans, i dont know if ill be cooking something" nice for the weekend" or drink with buddies ( seldom accept invites since all of them has plans), sleep first then junkie the whole evening, or find a hookup!
Im also good with procastinating, things that i love to do will change in a few, specially when i get home, i live outside the city and driving out sucks! im supposed to go to the gym and i dont feel my bodies looking for that urge,
all i know is that i love spending it on the evening, splurge with good food and a good conversation, for a couple of years, i havent spoken about my whims and what i should really protray about myself, often than not i go with the flow shut myself down and just being nothing. what i wanna do next is something that i can have myself " engaged with" something worthwhile that will catch the everything in me.
i envy those people who manages their time and spend it like a maniac, where nothing is wasted then getting back fully energised. i cant stick my mind on what im doing i hardly appreciate or find the essence of real contentment. likewise.. i have alot of things that i wanna do, but thats something beyond my capability. life is complicated even simple things messed up, i just need a break. thats it, but it has been elaborated to a complex issue.
goodmorning everyone, i hope to find my lime light, its 5:00am now. ill use this keyboard on other task.
happy weekend
